Saturday, March 17, 2012

Holy, Holy, Holy

Holy, Holy, Holy!
A word spoken twice in Hebrew is “Pay attention”. A word spoken 3 times is “listen, heed, this is vitally, life changingly important”.

I only just bow my head and whisper the words, holy, holy, holy in worship. Even as I strain to “FEEL” the awe of a holy God, I know they are just words that convey a truth to me. They are not yet a truth in truth in me that ignites my very body, soul and spirit. It’s all there, but in my mind only.
 Yet, as I seek to worship His holiness in my mind I find:
     1. My mind is skittering around, like I’m avoiding the issue;
     2. Someone else’s name comes to mind and I think “They need this”;
     3. I become aware this isn’t a moment to focus on what someone else needs. This is between my life and who I see God as;
     4. I find myself seeing myself . What explodes on my conscience thought is my self righteous judgments. Not one, but several instances flood my mind;
     5. I know at that moment that I don’t need to “FEEL” in worship, but just speaking the words, in deliberate remembrance of God as Holy, Holy, Holy was all God needed to gain entrance into my heart, soul and spirit. He was in, and His light was able to shine on the garden of my heart.

His light was shining directly on the WEED of self righteousness that has so flourished in my garden. This weed was casting deep shade over the good seeds which are trying to grow in the garden. It has kept them unable to grow, let alone bloom.
 I cried out in horror at what I'm seeing, “Rip it out, Lord, Please, rip it out”.

 The answer in my heart is “You must pull it up.”

 I am dismayed, but choose to act on the thought. I grasp it towards the top, thinking a little tug only would be needed and it would just pop out.

 I grab it and feel a prickle as of nettles, but not to bad, so give it a jerk. The top  leaves break off in my hand, but the weed is still very much present and unmoved. Moreover, my hands are on fire.

 I try and find a hold lower down looking for a place between thorns. A place it won't hurt me to grasp it to uproot it.  I find my hands are stinging just from the topmost leaves I did manage to break off. Every place I even try to place a finger encounters more and more pain. It's like there is a poison that enters the hand as I grasp it - to keep me from trying to pull it out.

It's like I hear mocking laughter .

 I despair I cry out “Oh LORD, help me. I cannot do this.”

 I feel his hand cupping my hands. He wraps my hands firmly around the very bottom of that weed, and closes them securely against the stem. And holding my hands in place he drew that weed up and out, roots and all. It hurt – like I was tearing my very body apart. I thought I would die of the pain. But as I looked, I saw the weed was gone. There was a crater the size of my life in my garden.

Next will be the ongoing repentance against judging others, and keeping my eyes on Him. I need give Him the Lordship of my life. In Him only can I be healed, cleansed and made into his image.

Oh Holy, Holy, Holy LORD GOD Almighty! Father, Creator, Savior. I love you. I worship you. Thank you!

Friday, March 9, 2012

Not one Sparrow falls

I was thinking this morning how the birds were chirping, happily it seemed to me. The thing that struck me was that they were not 'anxious' about the weather, about food, about their life span, or health, and about what tomorrow would bring. I looked up a passage, noted below, about being anxious. I have chosen this one.

Matthew 6:25-34 (ESV)
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow.

Christ told the crowd to consider the lily, clothed lovelier than Solomon, and the birds that neither toil nor spin.

I don't think Christ was advocating that we don't work or be involved in the process of living.

What I heard is that He knows all our needs. The subject is anxiety.

Yes, we are given work to do in life. Do it but don't think your work is your provider. Care for your health, but don't lean on your health for life. Be a good citizen of your country. For me in the USA that is to become acquainted with the issues and people who will come to a vote and vote. But don't trust in, or believe that your government is your life source.

Also, it's not that you cannot buy clothing and food, a car or even a house to make it a home. It's about giving thanks for all you can do; it's a gift from your Father, the job, the money, the health, and the life.

Sometimes God allows one to be removed, partially or fully, not to torment you but to draw you into a new realm of fellowship with him as you lean on him.

God says, and we know it is true, we cannot change certain things in our life by our worry, no matter how hard we try. Yes, unexpected and unpleasant things will come but if we lean on our true life source, He will sustain us in the hard times. His desire is for us to trust in and lean on him. Life will not be free of all hard times, but we are not in those hard times alone. Moreover, we have a hope of a life to come in which we will live not by faith alone, but by sight.

Until then, the LORD wants to enjoy our love, fellowship and trust here, in the now.

We were created for his glory - let us show forth His glory by our love and faith.